I suppose there's always that fear that the Dr. won't be able to help you. That utter moment when they call you to inform you they've decided to refer you to a specialist. Yep, that happened to me today. At first I was somewhat expecting it seeing how Clomid wasn't making me ovulate whatsoever. The bottom line is it still hurt. It hurts to know that the Dr. has done everything they think would work for you.
There is a bitter sweetness however, that comes with knowing you're going to a specialist. Either way it's something we all dread in the beginning but after years of trying and 3 rounds of Clomid you're willing to try anything.
Everything I keep reading told me to call right away and make an appointment. So I did. I called today and wasn't able to get in until a month from now. That's a tad bit frustrating seeing how I assume I will be 2 cycles later before I even get to meet with the specialist. I wish I would have called months ago but how was I to know who they would refer me to?
I am trying to remain calm and honest with myself. I keep telling myself that it's going to be months further before I get to try the next fertility treatment. My dreams of having a baby this month have been stomped on due to my CD 21 draw that proved Clomid is not working for me. It never was and I have to accept that.
